Thursday, 4 February 2016

"WANT"

By freedom she meant the desire to see world not to chase boys
By respect she meant the faith in her dreams not to open a door
By comfort she meant the safe place not the fancy restaurants

What she wants is pure love & not what money can buy!!

Wednesday, 3 February 2016

Someone from mars :p



There is a boy I never used to like,
His work and his silence turned off me every time.
Least bothered who is he and from where he has come,
I was sailing a boat with someone on low tides.

Until he brought a storm to my dreamy world,
And drift me apart from the coastline.
With his innocent eyes and witty tricks,
He made me forget everything like a gimmick.

It was an uncertain journey,
Where I could have lost anytime...
Still I preferred to be around him,

To get completely drenched into his electrical charm
The boring journey of mine all of a sudden
Turned into a thrilling adventure of lifetime
Now I am longing for more day by day
To keep me more alive 


 It’s like being on the dose of anaesthesia
To which I got slowly and mysteriously addicted

Finally, my destination is about to arrive,
& the fear of being apart lurks in my mind everytime....



Blahhhhhhh..........

I can never understand how people love to sit at home. For me it leads to depression. I totally hate sitting at home. Hate means a pure hate. I don’t know why….but the fact of lying on the couch, watching tv or surfing net never brings happiness to me at the end of day. Despite the fact only Sunday is the day when I can actually have the rest and whole week I wait for this day to chill out, still Sunday turns awful for me most of the times(if i sit at home).

Today its Sunday again which I supposed to enjoy but how it is possible if you are are a girl living in India. I don’t know why it is wrong to go out with friends or whosoever I want according to her. She wants me to be at home to have some “family time” which actually never happens at my place. Because everyone stays busy in their respective rooms doing not so interesting things like surfing net and watching TV instead of discussing what's going in their lives. I hardly remember any day when my parents asked me what's going in my life. 

If I want to come out of the monotony of this every Sunday's routine, I decide to go out I am enquired nothing less than acriminal. She wants me to sit at home and help her in chores which I feel are purposely created to just keep me occupied. It’s absolutely not like I don't want to help her, I want to but only when if the help is worth help. 

 I am not saying I don't want to spend time with my mom or I am not attached to her. I'm 24, still I want to see her before going to bed but obviously not the whole day.

So, yes I want to stay outside even if Sunday is the only day I get off from the work. I don’t care because it’s ultimately the polluted air of Delhi outside that rejuvenates my soul.  I don’t have fetish to explore new places, even the same place can work out for me for long provided that I go there with whom I want to. It's certainly the orthodox thought that always keep me a distance apart from my parents.

What they say I don’t understand and what I want they can’t understand. Hence, the equation of me with the home is never going to be LHS=RHS. I don’t want this spaced out relationship with them and may be they too. But nothing can change this atleast at present. All they want is make me live in in the huge hot-air balloon of restrictions. And what I want is- LET ME LIVE MY LIFE MY WAY.

Here, I feel trust, lil’ bit frankness and understanding is required to get over from this generation gap. I am trying to burst it but sometimes it just backfires on me like today. But doesn’t matter…..I would be the same for some more years till I get totally swallowed by their book of “Girls don’t do this”…. Till then, I believe in having fun by hook or by crook …:p



BROKEN PIECES :D

Best friends?? From school to college, I had few which sooner or later due to valid reasons got drifted apart from me EXCEPT the one.  Though I still consider her the one…I doubt about her views on the same. Why she is out of network coverage area is still a mysterious for me. Bcz the reason she ( Shally)explained to me for bringing a gap between us is too stupid in front of our six years FRAAANDSHIPPPP…….
Well, they say everything happens for a reason. I still cherish the time I have spent with her and hope one day I we would talk…..till then my enjoying her in dreams….I don’t know how but yes very frequently she is there like a nightmare to keep me next day totally confused what the hell shez dng now???…for her it was me the biggest culprit who kept her away from my life...
Just bcz my bf refused to hang out wd Shally and her bf is a strong reason ACCORDING to HER for throwing me out. I don’t know what was going in her head but till today I feel it was a lame excuse. I mean this gf bf thing would ever came btw us is something I have never imagined. Bt I took it as a lesson and promised myself to keep my bf just like a fictional character. Someone who is there in my life but can never reach to my friend’s zone…
I just hope if not now but someday she realized this reason was too small to break my heart….sob sob….From that time, I have made many friends, luckily very good ones..From every category....Some scolds me like brothers and sisters and some are ever ready to make life lovable all the time…Obviously I still laugh, hang around, shop, party but at the back of my mind shez still there…
Lol....I have never even felt this much broken for a boy…but well, so much special she was for me….Maybe I don’t deserve her or vice versa….:D. Life goes on…and make us realize nothing stops no matter what’s comes and goes out of our heart….we manage to fill that void to survive in this BAD……BAD world.